. . . and what does it mean to wait?
In the larger sense, to wait is to speak a dangerous word to the entire American “thing.” It means that I’m learning to curtail my desires for quick and easy graitifications. As the pastor pointed out, this is what Christmas has become: we go out and we shop. If we want something, we go out and get it. No waiting required. And yet, the lesson of the historical church teaches us a belief in this season, a certain frame of mind. Since this sermon coincided for me with my recent obsession with Sufjan Stevens’ Songs for Christmas, let me illustrate that frame of mind with lyrics I’ve posted here before. The song is called “That Was the Worst Christmas Ever!”
That Was The Worst Christmas Ever!
Going outside
Shoveling snow in the driveway, driveway
Taking our shoes
Riding a sled down the hillside, hillside
Can you say what you want?
Can you say what you want to be?
Can you be what you want?
Can you be what you want?
Our father yells
Throwing gifts in the wood stove, wood stove
My sister runs away
Taking her books to the schoolyard, schoolyard
In time the snow will rise
In time the snow will rise
In time the Lord will rise
In time the Lord will rise
Silent night
Holy night
Silent night
Nothing feels right
This beautiful song expresses that strange feeling of hope, of a difficult expectation. When he say “in time the Lord will rise,” I think we all feel it with him. In time, in time he’ll come. And if we can feel that, then we know what the Advent is all about.
More traditionally, the spirit of Advent is perfectly captured in the wonderful Christmas song (also covered by Sufjan!) O Come O Come Emmanuel. Here’s the lyrics.
O Come O Come Emmanuel
O come, O come, Emmanuel,
And ransom captive Israel,
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear.
Rejoice! Rejoice!
Emmanuel shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come, Thou Wisdom from on high,
Who orderest all things mightily;
To us the path of knowledge show,
And teach us in her ways to go.
O come, Thou Day-spring, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here;
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night,
And death’s dark shadows put to flight.
O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads on high,
And close the path to misery.
O come, O come, great Lord of might,
Who to Thy tribes on Sinai’s height
In ancient times once gave the law
In cloud and majesty and awe.
O come, Desire of nations, bind
In one the hearts of all mankind;
Bid Thou our sad divisions cease,
And be Thyself our King of Peace.
We have to put ourselves in the place of “captive Israel,” a nation of people held under the saelf-righteous boot of the Roman Empire and longing for the King they’ve long expected. The people of Israel dared to hope that God would come to them, and this season we do the same – more specifically, we hope and pray for the arrival of “Emmanuel,” or “God With Us.” So, if we’ve experienced that feeling that God is nowhere near us, then we know the Advent season. We know what it feels like to begin losing hope in those things which we’ve always trusted. This is a feeling that happens, and this Advent season, we are to dwell on that feeling.
So, what’s the good news? As the Nazarene pastor pointed out, it’s two-fold, and not too cheap: First, we are not alone in desiring Christ’s return. For two thousand years Christians have experienced the feeling of Advent in their anticipation of Christ’s return. And, we can draw upon their faith to help us secure our own. I really wondered if this Nazarene pastor was audaciously opening the door to veneration of the saints! I thought it was pretty cool. And second, God does arrive, though often (as with Christmas) in ways we would not expect and never on our timeline. Oh, how I’m resisting the urge to mention the film Magnolia right now, I’ll just have to let it slide!
Advent teaches us to wait. Waiting is not good for America’s consumer economy, because as soon as we begin waiting, we start buying less. “Black Friday,” that cornerstone of the American economic calendar, begins to look to us as a different shade of black. The frenzy of big-box retail shopping madness appears unworthy of our time. And all of this occurs right alongside our admission that we are impatient people. We don’t like to wait. But if we are serious about Christmas, we must learn that we cannot enjoy it without first experiencing the waiting. We light but one candle each week, just waiting, when theo world would have us light the whole damn thing at once. Waiting, not for fantastic gifts under the tree, but for Christ’s strange appearance in our lives, an appearance which disrupts and disturbs. It is an appearance that unsettles us, like the prophet’s voice Carlo mentioned in his last post. That’s the Advent season.
I’m learning to wait.